I don't know.

Where is your husband? I don't know.
When will he be back? I don't know.
When will he call next? I don't know.
What ports is he enjoying? I don't know.
Did he go to the gulf? I don't know.


I don't know, and if I do I can not tell you because of OPSEC Rules(operation security).
I will not and do not plan to put my husband or other womens Husbands, Brothers, Sons, Nephews or Uncles, in danger because i could not keep my mouth shut.
No matter if they are hanging off the coast of California or the coast of Africa, my husband is in the United States Military and we have enemies and i do not want my husband is danger for someone Else's lack of containment of vital information. I believe in OPSEC, and all Military significant others should as well.

The Holidays

I have spent 1 real Christmas with my husband and we weren't even married when I did. One year he was away another he was on duty and this year he will have duty Christmas eve but will be home for Christmas day. That is a blessing i am most grateful for. There are many military wives out there who spend no holidays with the loved ones while I have been spoiled and have had my husband for either Christmas eve or Christmas day. I have also stayed in the town I grew up in, so my whole family resides here. I have never truly been alone or away from my family. So this one goes out to the brave women who spend time thousands of miles away from family or their husbands aren't home for the holidays, I commend you for your bravery and your strong will to continue with this lifestyle even with the demands it carries. Thank you for all the silent ranks out there standing by their men no matter what circumstance the military puts us in.

Sometimes I wonder

There is a fine line between being responsible and humble enough to be the head of your family, may it be two or three in your small family but you still need to maintain a sense of cool, and formidable way of dealing with the importance of your family.
I do not understand why women out there marry quickly to a military man and then give out a aroma of being easy.
I go too bars and meet women and half of them are military wives and they tell me how they can relate to me. No! you can not. I am at a bar with my husband not while he is away, or I am at a bar with my family while he is away. I am not here on my own going boy crazy as i presumably can tell from the ease you take talking to a man.
I have had my fare shares of irresponsibility at the young age I married and I had to learn the hard way of how to maintain class being a military wife. We already have a reputation as being the easy slut, from the many who have decided to cheat on the loved ones who are putting their life at risk fighting for our country who cheats us from the real hero rewards.
I do not like those love stories that end with the heartbreak of cheaters or the divorce of irreconcilable difference because you rushed into a marriage, or maybe he was your first love. May it be whatever reason you have, Marriage is taken to lightly these days, and I want to put it out there that we military wives need to take precautions to not let that percentage of divorce rate in the military rise.
Love is blinding and you need to remember that as soon as you say I do, You need to maintain the responsibility and humbleness of this family you are now making.

If only

If only my concentration at night did not hold me back to a t.v. show, facebook, and stress with money and upcoming deployments.
If only i had a straight month where i could sleep next to my husband.
If only My heart didn't feel empty every time he left.
If only I wasn't so used to Him being gone.
If only, only works in a fantasy world that just doesn't exist.

My first is to my husband

As I wake by your side,
My feelings for you I can not hide,
I touch your face in the morning light,
Being with you just feels so right

You make me feel like I'm a queen,
Like being inside an awesome dream,
Although this is real, that I know,
As the love that surrounds us continues to grow

I think of what the future holds...
Marriage, children, us growing old,
And as I lay, with you dear,
I'm just so glad you're mine, you're here.

- Jo Pye -

To this day I can't believe that I meet you at the trolley that one random day. Or that we fell in love soon after. And a while after that were to be engaged. Or even that we decided to get married that day you asked me to go out with you and we ended up getting married =)
If this is bliss i can't even imagine what heaven would be like. As long as i am with you I am happy. No one will know this feeling like ours because it is only ours.
I love you William.