The Difference of navy wives.

I am a Navy wife. I will not deny it, I will proudly say it, and stand up for it.
There is a difference though between the "navy life" I lead. I write this blog in hopes that one day my story, my words will leave there mark in history. Many out there have come up with the great idea of writing a blog following a military wife life and its hardships. We endure many hardships and although I am just as sad and continue living a married life "single", I do not take joy in explaining the actual situation we are left in, or receiving pity for it. Sometimes i feel like the wives writing about our struggles are only trying to receive pity or falsehood of some sort of fame. This blog i hope that will succeed isn't in hopes of fame or wealth, but rather to have an actual look that not all navy wives are cheating on their husbands or that wives are just for the drama. No we have aspirations, dreams, and love. For me, Its fore the love of writing.

Seriously

I am no longer a religious person, I no longer fight for rights, I have decided to write and even so am hyprocrite in my thoughts, I do not care to lie anymore, I am abrupt, I am a good wife but I am full of flaws, If I don't like you then your social life might as well be over, And this sense of honesty is fast becomi...ng but will soon fade into silence, So for now hear this voice, so for now take me seriously.

The concept of love

Who is anyone to define the true meaning of love or what romance really is. I've recently talked to a friend that has a right idea and i quote," Sometimes, I think that I’m a hopeless romantic. You mentioned “just laying in bed and watching movies”. I think that can be romantic, too. In my opinion romance isn’t always about “glits and glamor”. It’s about the time you spend with the one you love." and what if this one theory is right. what if this is what many people in the world believe. what makes a human simple. someone who thinks clearly and comes with a reasonable conclusion to the question on everyone's mind who is or has been in love. i sit with music on and i hear the lyrics, most people don't they think they do but they don't define them for what they really are. just simple words can be accounted as a romantic gesture. but how do we distinguish people from hopeless romantics to those that aren't so hopeless in their quest for love. is there really "the one" or is it something that society made up one day to cover up some estranged fragment of the possible truth due to powerful justification of religion. I'm one of millions who have asked this question. and although there is scientific proof as to why we feel the emotions of love due to our brain waves, how do we know that there really isn't something as powerful as just one word, " LOVE." there have been people who have opposed to the scientific facts. and brought great love stories of the worlds past. what if these love stories are the reasons that politics and kingdoms and countries were defined by the power of love. is it really blind? is it really just a part of our conscience and not our entire being. how do we go on everyday not understanding that our concept of love is not from our own imagination but from others. through out the years. movies, songs, books, folk tale. is this just all a gimmick to reproduce the human race. we as humans are known to be cruel. we are the only animals who kill our own kind. how about maybe our own kind put an evil form of power and transformed it into love. just to get reproduction out of our kind so we can live. but because of this idea this love we are over populated and now are in one of the worst shapes our planet has been in. what if love contributed to fact of global warming. what if every great idea was behind love, behind the passion we carry as humans. i could be wrong in many of my thoughts in this paragraph but none the less they are my thoughts. only because i am to a victim of this power called love.

Thoughts on romance.

you know what i think about when people ask me what i want for my birthday. i want some sort of fairy tale actually its corny and blah. but I'll tell you anyways just cause I'm in a sharing mood. i want flowers lots of flowers like red daisy's and peach roses. i want lily's and i want them all over my house. that's what i want. i have always dreamed of that. it has been my secret for many years. but of course I'm to prideful to admit such a girlish thing to my friends. I've never believed in romance i always thought it was forceful in its ways. but i think because i haven't gotten romance in a sincere way it has made me cynical. and it is most certainly not something that i desperately need I'm simple everyone knows. just lay in bed with me and watch movies take me out to dinner every once in a while and do spur of the moment things. i have figured thus far in my very small life that, that is what i want from a great love. when i think of romantic gestures an ex b/f of mine from high school tried to take me to romantic places but i never cared for it and i still don't but to tell you another secret i think that if my man brought me flowers ever so often i would be so happy. that is the most precious present i want to receive. i never thought i needed it so bad but i figured that if i don;t get much from someone the most i want from them is flowers. and its stupid but its how i feel as a women as someone who wants to be loved and wants to love someone back. its the oldest ways of life to believe in love. i do believe in it and it will prevail in good time. i have a strong feeling that it has to it just has to prove to the world that it shouldn't be taken lightly it should be the utmost feeling a human can conceive. i believe that is why children are made because they take in love so easily. but in today's society i hate to admit that no one practices the emotional forms of love anymore and that we have lost our ways and that's why i don't care for romance. but i have figured out that not the whole world is like that. there are people who see my way of thinking and add to it. i refuse to believe that i am alone in my thoughts

Heartache?

My heart aches cry
why you ask? to show you the
mad existence of evil
evil you think? is it right to lead on a genuine person's feelings?
no you say? of course not.
life isn't a game you can just throw away
nod your head in agreement? a crush is something that hits you hard,
a feeling of sincere joy to the human eye.
to a human eye you yell? why yes
because what an eye sees is only
the exterior what the hand feels is only
pressure what the mind grasps and comes to understand
is the mistake we all make.
a mistake in your thoughts? the mistake
of leading someones heart to cry in pain
do you understand my heart aches, cry
because of the once joy inside was mistaken
by a human mind